The time for the dinner came; I shared such a wonderful
time with my newly engaged friends, along with another close friend, her
husband, and little girl. We enjoyed
great food and fellowship.
As the time approached for me to say good bye to
them all, my heart felt so full. I was blissful
that the dinner went so well and was thankful for the time spent with those
that I loved. I was thrilled about my
best friend’s engagement. I was
grateful to God for the moments like these that made life good.
It’s been three years since that day. My family and I will never be the same. Just like so many other families we know the
pain of loss and also when it happens around the holidays. For many people holidays are just another
reminder of what has been lost and that there is an empty seat at the dinner
table. And until you have experienced
it, there are no words to adequately describe the grief. What I have learned is people grieve
differently and that grief has an important place in the healing process.
In my time of grief and contemplating life I needed
God’s comfort and wisdom. He provided. There were times I had good old fashioned
“pity parties.” He was there. I let myself have moments of despair and
hopelessness, where I questioned everything.
I even questioned God. He let me.
As I emerged from the other side, I realized several
things. There is nothing more important than
where I spend eternity. Death can happen
so quickly no matter what age, would I be ready if it happened today? Do I have the assurance of being with Jesus
in heaven when that day comes for me?
What about the ones I love, have I shared the gospel with them? Have I told them about the saving grace of
God and have they had the opportunity to know Him? Do I love those around me well? Do they know I love them?
For those that will pass on that have a relationship
with Christ, I can be comforted in knowing that in heaven ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’
or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”
(Rev 21:4)I found that going through this was a training ground for me to be able to comfort someone else. Not very long after my cousin passed away, one of my dear friends lost her husband to a tragic accident, he too was only twenty nine. I have no doubt in my mind that the lessons I learned through my own grief enabled me to be a better comforter to her when she needed someone.
The final lesson took me a while to really grasp,
years actually. Crystal loved me and
because of that love she would want the best for me. She would want me to be happy. She would want me to remember her but not in
a depressing way, she would want me to laugh and remember the good times we all
shared. She would never want her death
to be the cause of me not living life to the fullest, becoming hopeless, and
dwelling too much on the past.
So this Christmas season I just want to share with
you that it does get better. No of
course it never goes away, you don’t just “get over” losing someone you
love. You just get a little tougher and
press forward. You learn to cope with
it. The things I’ve shared are what have
made me stronger through the grief. As I
said everyone’s grief is different, I don’t claim to know exactly how someone
else feels. But my sincere hope for
sharing this story is to comfort and encourage those of you that may be
suffering right now. Don’t waste your life by letting grief overwhelm you. I
believe God and our lost loved ones want us to truly live and do so with joy
while we are on earth. If you can’t find
the strength to do it for yourself right now, do it for them. I hope each of you have a blessed Christmas
and make many more beautiful memories with the friends and family you have,
please don’t take life for granted.
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